You are not alone. There is hope!
I just returned from an amazing trip to Hawaii. Amazing in the sense that I forgot how warm weather can make me feel so relaxed, joyful and refreshed. It begins by waking each morning to the clear blue skies wrapped in sunshine. Salt air, soft sand between my toes, feeling relaxed in the warm ocean water as waves push and pull me with childlike delight and comfort. Ending each day waiting for the vivid ever changing colors of the sky to set. However, the most amazing part of this trip occurred during the mediumship events and private readings.
Working as a Medium I have grown to notice that the Spirit World works in themes, especially publicly. I’m aware of the big impact a theme offers as it provides everyone attending a glimpse into that life, love and the loss. We all relate, understand and sense it when it is authentic and pure. No matter if you were observing or receiving the connection it affects everyone at some level. With only so much time and energy to be offered in a session or a public event, the Spirit World makes the best of our time and their opportunity. It is an amazing personal experience of happiness, healing and hope shared with everyone attending.
Themes occur with strangers, folks sitting together or across the room, sharing the same names, grew up in the same town, attended the same school, employment or church, suffered from the same type of loss, illnesses or have some unique date, time or subject in common. Never knowing each other while alive, on the Other-side they are well acquainted!
In the past I have shared evidence and messages from fathers which all passed from the same illness, Great Aunts all sharing the same name (Mildred) and personality, women of all ages at different times had their lives stolen at the hands of abuse / murder. Teenage boys having fun, exploring and living life with no fear – dying quick, fast and way too young. All meeting up on the Other-side to offer each other support and to heighten their energy collectively to ensure family members, friends sense their presence, love and receive a connection.
This trip was one of those themes. Occurring from client to client and into the public demonstrations. It began with an endless line of men stepping forward one at a time. These countless men gathered as a group, a force making such a big impact to ensure each loved one understood their death - suicide. At times supporting each other, encouraging, inspiring and offering humor. An easy to understand 2- prong message was the theme from these men.
#1. We are all very much alive and healing on the Other-side. No longer suffering or in pain.
#2 The choice was all ours, no matter the circumstances leading up to it.
Not one person who has taken their own life is stuck in limbo or burns in Hell. They do not get lost, remain behind, need to be rescued or are tormented. They ALL are gently greeted at the time of death (no matter how it happened) never alone, offered healing and help. They are given a deeper level of understanding of how their actions caused a ripple effect of sorrow, pain and devastation. Lots of healing and an opportunity to make it better – in the future.
I have never felt such an overwhelming out-pour from the Spirit World…. needing to reconnect to the survivors. A few begged while some asked for forgiveness for the choices they made. Not one Spirit claimed anyone could have interfered, stopped them, controlled them or caused the suicide. The choice was 100% theirs. All were accountable. They understand now, on a level hard for me to explain in a written word. That the dark thoughts, the aches, the deep heavy emotions, addictions, overwhelming fear and long lasting guilt they had fought was just too much. Suicide offered each of them an easy exit. Which now, not one of them had imagined the pain they would cause by this decision. Partners, parents, children, friends, spouses, co-workers and entire communities - all forever changed by dealing with the aftermath of their actions.
What I personally learned is that many of us….. ache with pain and do not know how to process, communicate, cope or ask for help. Feeling lost in an illness, addiction, embarrassment from finances, relationships and just dealing with life. Suicide becomes real. It has no gender, age limit, sexuality or zip code.
Are you suicidal? Know someone suicidal? Are you a survivor of suicide? Please begin healing by using your resources. You are not alone. There is hope!
Were You Born This Way?
When I am asked what I do for a living and reply that I am Evidential Medium, I can usually predict how someone will respond without any intuitive abilities. They tilt there head as if they did not hear me correctly, offer a long blink or just stare at me, look around – especially behind me, lean in and whisper “How do you know… You know, they’re here?” “Do you see them all the time?” “Were you born this way?”
I did not have a near death experience, medical complications nor did I see dead people as a child. I don’t dabble or believe in dark entities, monsters, big-foot, hexes or those that are stuck on this Earth – haunted places or spooky ghosts trying to hurt us. I do not like to be scared so if I was to do this work and be scared I would not be the best resource, I would be bat crazy! I prefer to feel compassion, forgiveness, encouragement and inspiration with my work. I do believe and understand like attracts like and everything is energy. So, if you are seeking the fear factor, walking dead, vampires or soul stealers – you will find it. Just not anywhere near this girl!
I am a very basic, vanilla sort of Medium. I do this work to bring happiness, healing and hope to those who have lost a loved one and for those seeking information on their own spiritual journey. My intention is to leave everyone with enough validation and information that we are not just on this earth to live and die or dying to live. I believe our souls are here to experience a wide variety of emotions and they can be everything from horrific, unfair and devastating to beautiful, amazing and thrilling.
When I was younger I did not share my abilities with many people as it was more important for me to be liked and to fit in. I knew society had a really bad perception of what was titled as intuitives, psychics and mediums. They were often attached to crystal balls, Ouija boards, cauldrons, capes and big dark rooms. Throw in a broom, magic dust and rainbows arching over a unicorn and I have about covered it. The media created a lot of that image to sell movies, books and games by placing the fear factor into dying and death. It can be challenging, frustrating and lonely to know you are different and not accepted by your friends and even your family. Lack of knowledge and confidence stopped me from moving forward.
I have always had a curiosity about past lives. Who was I, where did I live, who was my family, children, occupations, hobbies and how did I die? Why am I in this body, with this life now, and what should I be doing with my precious life this go round? I do have a purpose don’t I?
Things really opened up for me when I had an opportunity to explore past life regression. It was amazing how easy it was to wander through the events, identify people, understand languages and live through the dying and the death. It brought me to my next logical step of knowledge and exploration - hypnotherapy. I wanted to be able to offer the same sort of experiences so others would feel the same sense of connection and purpose I had received. I learned immediately not everyone has the same desire or feelings as I do to learn about their past. For me hypnotherapy didn’t end my curiosity, in fact it pushed me forward to find my biggest unanswered question yet, what is my life purpose?
“When you see people only as personalities, rather than souls with life missions to fulfill, you forever limit the growth and possibilities of what God has in store for another person.” ― Shannon L. Alder
On my search I read books, researched the internet, took online classes, enrolled in courses, absorbed myself with tests and questionnaire on careers, relationships, location’s to live, vacations to take and body styles to emulate. Nothing, not a thing I found felt right. I began to panic and feel like I was wasting my time – in a sense rushing but accomplishing nothing. I had someone tell me that I had to be on the correct path as I was to experience this confusion and frustration so when I did find what I was searching for I would absolutely know it – and not settle. That was when I realized one of my many life lessons was patience.
I believe we each can identify our life lessons when we are open to what keeps showing up in our life and pushing us out of our comfort zone. It isn’t what happens to each of us in this life it will be how we respond. Be angry, a victim, a martyr or learn what aches and pulls you at a deeper soul level. This offers your soul the opportunity to evolve. I believe we have chosen to incarnate on this Earth to experience life in the physical (in a body). To feel emotions and to choose to do the right thing –no matter what. If my belief is true, why wouldn’t you want to live your life on your terms, filled with love, laughter and joy? Enjoy relationships, careers and friendships that make you happy and offer you inner strength of being your best version? Why choose anything less?
I have always been curious, but I took on a new intensity of asking endless questions to anyone who would listen or respond to me. In near rapid fire I would ask questions until I could feel a response of authenticity of what they enjoyed or dislike about their lives. How do you know you are living your best life? Your purpose? Do you love, like or tolerate your relationships – your life? What makes you except there is nothing more? I wasn’t able to take the blanket responses of “I don’t know” from anyone including myself.
One evening, I was sitting in my living room feeling helpless and confused on what to research next. That sense of rushing had come over me again. I was told I had fallen into what folks identify as depression, or at least western medicine branded it that. I call it the rabbit hole; another learning for me to experience and identify with. Inner mind chatter of what’s next, when and how – go for it, why are you waiting? What confused me was that I had a fantastic job, wonderful relationship and a life many envied. I knew I would not feel settled until I lifted the ache in my heart of understanding why I was here – living now, and was I living my best life? I clearly knew I was not, my soul told me that.
I felt a familiar inner stir that evening, this time I took in deep breath, held it and just slowly let it go. Letting go of the confusion for the first time. Letting go needing to know. Letting go of worry. Just letting go and allowing my life to be what it needed be. With or without my permission, I just exhaled it all.
My entire life I quieted that familiar inner feeling with food, activities, alcohol, endless cleaning or just moving around so it would go away. This evening was different, I sat still long enough to just breathe exhaling out what no longer served me and allowing my mind to empty. For the first time I felt my entire body from my toes up through my skull. Sitting there without thoughts, feelings and most of all judgement. I felt my life shift in a way words will never explain. My purpose was about to be revealed.
Soon after that evening I noticed people, places and things around me more clearly. I was pulled to what I know is my inner hearing, where I was offered suggestions in single words or one sentence. Names of books to read, location to find resources, classes, courses and teachers to study from. I asked for more and always was thankful with what I was given. We all have inner hearing, it isn’t voices in your head (that is different!) they are not booming, echoes or whispers they are the voice that arrives in between your own thoughts. It is partnered with a sense of knowing, but nothing I can outwardly prove. Call it intuition, gut instinct or curiosity – I just began to listen to it for the first time. It had always been there, I just didn’t pay much attention to how it made me feel. I was never let down and was amazed how events, situations and people showed up in my life.
I then followed my personal desire to understand why I was living this life and what lessons I needed to accomplish while here. I did not want to waste any more time. It always brought me back to living and dying and in between was the events and the lessons my soul needed to except, forgive and then move on - evolve. It became simple, what I noted was that every person, every event and every situation was a teacher to me. It wasn’t the event or situation that branded or scared me. It was how I responded and then chose to learn without judgement. This is where our valuable life lesson nuggets are exposed, in clear view and in the wide open space.
Eventually, I was brought smack dab eye to eye on what my life purpose was, crazy now to me as it was there all along. However, I chose not to align with it, identify with it or want to be ‘it’. One of my life lessons is tucked so gently inside that statement too!
“You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something – your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down and it has made all the difference in my life.” - Steve Jobs
Yes, I was born this way, I have always known on a level that our lives are each unique and special, none a mistake. Our soul’s ache to learn, live and experience. We each step into what pulls us forward, from our heart. When we dig deeper to understand the ache, you become more alive as you pursue it. For me, I found it fascinating, fun, easy and interesting to speak to the Spirit World. Even more impressive to me was that they spoke back! When they spoke back I began to really listen, with not just my head but my heart. The memories, evidence and messages offered are so amazing and beautiful – they filled my heart with purpose and joy.
When I offered my first connection, I cried. I cried not because I had this woman’s mother talking about her remodeled checkerboard floor tiles and the out of style oven but because of the love I felt from her soul. I cried for nearly an hour as I knew inside of my heart and outside of my head I was now living my life with purpose. I was doing what I came here to do; speak for those who can no longer communicate – to offer evidence that our loved ones are still very much a part of our lives – just differently. The bonds of love never unravel, sever or are destroyed – even through death.
I was born this way, but it took me many years to understand and accept what it was. As soon as I followed what pulled me forward and fully released what society said I should be - I began to fully live.
Jennifer Brazier, Evidential Medium
This blog is a place for me to be vulnerable and share my insights, learning's and my own journey.